I know that I am stronger and more determined now

WOW! What a journey it has been. I would not have imagined in a million years that when I was admitted I would be where I am right now.  It has not been easy, quite the opposite, and I’ve had my fair share of ups and downs and will continue to have them.  But I know that I am stronger and more determined now, than ever.  When I walked in I was so very ill and didn’t at all realise it.  I was clueless as to mental health illnesses and how they can completely ruin peoples’ lives so easily.  I am walking out of here, not recovered but well on the road and I know I would NEVER EVER be where I am today without you all.  At times I may not have shown this but at the very bottom of my heart I knew that always you were trying to save my life and now I realise how truly important that was.  I am more confident, less troubled, I laugh at least once very day and every morning I get up it’s another day closer to being rid or anorexia altogether.  Among the many experiences I will take away from my admission and all I have learnt, the most important thing to remember is that healing does not mean the damage never existed, it means the damage no longer controls your life.